Sunday, May 13, 2018

The Oh Well Creation Myth

[It must needs be I file this under fictional writing for fun, please indulge me.]

The intelligences always were, always have been. God the Mother and Father organized them into heirs. Individuals with divine potential.

The daughters matured rapidly in spiritual strength such that they were ready to be tested within a sphere earlier and separate from their brothers. Having proven themselves true and faithful in the spirit to the principles of God with a true and honest heart they were elevated to the highest level of the angelic hierarchy afterward. In that station they were given the privilege to both guard and bestow that final gift of wisdom to any who had proven themselves similarly, and seek their companionship in order to inherit the Celestial Kingdom in its fullness. This occurred when woman was transfigured to flesh & bones (but not blood) and partook of the final fruit in parallel to her chosen companion.

Adam and his kind were different. It was not good for him to be alone, he could not be tested in the spirit. In order to progress like an at-term child clutching his mother's womb a "membrane rupture" would need to occur, but not with water, with blood. He would need help in his sphere and Eve elected to support him. Jehovah volunteered to save Adam for if and when he stumbled. Lucifer rejected this plan, wanted glory for himself, and misery for anyone who did not follow him.


Prior to coming to earth, Adam covenanted to obey the laws of God on earth, and hearken unto Eve as she discerned right from wrong.

When Eve entered the garden in the flesh she defaulted to the typical protocol: Woman incarnate = Both Man and Woman obtain the Fruit of Knowledge. Satan knew that the order was Fruit of Life (and power in the priesthood) followed by Knowledge (as this is how it had been done in other worlds). Figuring Eve was already saved, he focused on getting Adam to partake of the fruit of knowledge because 1) this would allow sin and death to enter the world 2) this would seemingly damn Adam forever. When Adam did not bend to him, Lucifer worked on Eve hoping that she could be more persuasive in eating the fruit. In this he was correct.

What Lucifer had not anticipated, however, are at least three things 1) the same knowledge used to create spirits in the Kingdom could be used to create children on earth, 2) Jesus would condescend to be born of a mortal woman and save mankind in flesh and blood, and 3) all of this would be made possible by Eve submitting to take a test that was beneath her angelic station (knowing that if and when she sinned she would need a savior as much as Adam).

In the temple we honor the moment Eve said "yes" and made this sacrifice. We symbolize it because this was a unique act performed by the woman elected to be the mother of all living.

On this Mother's Day, I'm letting my heart be thankful for that knowledge and allowing my imagination to consider how it all played out.

Sunday, May 6, 2018

Are Women Born to Transgress the Law?

It might not always look like it, but I'm a legal beagle. I'm a rule follower. I'm all about exactness.

But I also notice things. I cannot tolerate social injustice. I appreciate nuance. 

As I have pondered the scriptures and reflected on temple blessings, I have asked myself why the task of discernment is placed squarely on the shoulders of women.

Adam saw a forbidden apple; Eve debated right and wrong, truth from error. She ultimately transgressed the law for the betterment of all mankind. 

Likewise, Rebekah tricked Isaac. Ruth seduced Boaz. Esther deceived the King. Mary became pregnant out of wedlock. Elizabeth broke tradition by naming her son, and not after her husband.

Getting $#*+ done.

Could it be then that men are meant to uphold the law in black and white, while women are entrusted to break it when God's purposes call for it? If so, does a woman remain spotless while she faces consequences like disfellowship and even excommunication? Some Jewish scholars have said Rebekah was punished for deceiving Isaac and directing Jacob to steal Esau's blessing. To me it would seem she was still clean every whit in God's eyes (see John 13:10), but perhaps needed to be absolved of her "sin" from the Church perspective. 

If this setup is correct, then there should be unofficial (at least as the Church is concerned) societies of women seers among us, honing their powers of discernment and acting within bounds the Lord as set, which might not be the same as the exact law given to our Institution. When I think of Satan's counterfeit to this society, the Gadianton Robbers come to mind. --I used to skip over those parts of the Book of Mormon, but now I'm curious to revisit them and contemplate what the opposite organization would look like. 

Allow me to let my mind wander...

Could it be that somewhere out there there is a group of women blessing and naming babies whose parents are gay? Women who lay hands on each other to bless them with healing? Daughters who pray to their Heavenly Mother? And other such "naughty" things?

Just curious. I realize this blog is public, so y'know, I would never do such a thing or promote any rule-breaking... Unless compelled by God!

Saturday, May 5, 2018


Born with the Breath of Life
====Baptized and Confirmed
============Initiatory & Endowment
================Temple Veil & Sealing
====================Life in Heaven as a Family in God's Presence
================ Giving Eve's Name & Sealing in Eden
============Worship at the Altar
Resurrected with the Breath of Life

Sunday, April 8, 2018

Female Seership


In my earlier posts I asked and attempted to answer questions about the participatory roles of faithful women today. The duties and expectations for men are so clearly outlined within the priesthood offices; I think it would go a long way to have such expectations for women. After much praying, pondering, and reading the scriptures I have made two very startling (in a good way) discoveries, which I will further explore below: 1) The power of women is, among other things, divine seership. 2) Mother Earth assists in giving mankind its sight to see.

Female Seership in the Scriptures

Examples of women who could see and interpret emblems:
  1. Eve could see the fruit was good
  2. Rebekah saw who should receive the father's blessing
  3. Mary saw that she would have a son of God, though the means she did not know
  4. Elizabeth saw his name was John (I'm convinced Zacharias was mute so that he could write out his son's name and make this a visual experience representing his wife's seeing powers)
The astounding thing for me was finding the pairings of insightful women with men who were literally blind, which underscores her distinct power:

  • Blind Isaac and Seeing Rebekah
  • Blind Simeon* and Seeing Ana

I don't have time for it right now, but I'd really like to dissect the differences (if any) between Simeon and Ana because this could represent the parallel work of men and women intended for the Church today. They were on the same side in their example of receiving the Christ and it could be telling to see where they echoed each other, and where they uniquely complimented each other.

*Not written in scripture, but traditionally known as blind

Mother Earth, a Divine Urim and Thummin

The Restoration story features the use of the Urim and Thummin and seer stones, which are naturally derived from the earth. Likewise the Book of Mormon describes how the brother of Jared produced stones to overcome the darkness (i.e. blindness) in the barges headed for the promised land. Throughout the scriptures clay is used to restore sight to the blind. In all of these examples, Mother Earth expands the vision of men who would otherwise be limited without her. Latter-day doctrine even informs us that, one day, the entire earth in "its celestial condition will be a Urim and Thummim."

Convergence is a Sign of Seership

A Society of Seers

I have been blessed in my life to have good, righteous women in it. In the past year I was able to gather my elect sisters into an experiment of sorts. We would pray and ponder various thoughts and concepts and convene together in person and (mostly) online to discuss our insights. What we've found over and over again is that even when we study things separately, we often arrive at very specific and even unconventional conclusions in common. These conclusions are so specific as to make coincidence unlikely. I take such convergence to be a sign of seership in action, a look through the divine lens, if you will.

This post will remain a work in progress. I will return to add insights as they come. I wish to repeat here that The President of The Church is THE prophet and seer for The Church; what women have is on an individual scale, with the potential to change homes, communities, and nations.

Wednesday, April 4, 2018

The Human Body is Full of Symbolism

I like to sketch and paint the human portrait. I like the shapes found on the human body. This might be surprising to you because I typically like symmetric, geometric shapes in my interior and clothing designs.

Did you know we have perfect semi-/circles and semi-squares on our bodies? Do you know where?

Our knees and elbows can be brought up to perfect 90 degree angles, we see the latter position used frequently for swearing-in ceremonies, typically with one's other hand on a book of scripture, and the classic "scout's honor."

As for circles, our eyes are perfect examples of this at the iris and pupils. Also, our nipples and navel. Even the pincer grasp (shown above) is strikingly similar to a compass and, in a pinch*, can be used to draw semi-circles with the thumb in fixed position.

Our society tends to associate masculinity with the square and femininity with curves, though certainly there are aspects of each in both sexes. In fact, before Jesus did away with the old law (which tore through the temple veil), men were bound to take on the circle through circumcision to be closer to God, in whose image both male and female were created.

Isn't the body beautiful? It is another testament to the divinity of God.

*nyuk nyuk

Monday, January 22, 2018


You know that scene in Dave Chappelle's skit about Prince where he's lying there on the sofa in a ruffled purple suit, licking a lollipop, and finally proclaims, "This BORES me"? That's how I've been feeling at church events for women. I feel like we say the same things over and over and over again because we're hesitant to get into deep doctrine, we want to place band-aids on festering wounds, and we're interested in keeping the status quo.

I'm about to prove this with my handy-dandy LDS Women BINGO card above. I've got a couple of such activities coming up and if I can make it through without a victorious straight line I'll be seriously surprised. And glad.

High on the Pedestal


A few weeks ago I was pounced on by feminist friends who didn't appreciate my observations about the temple. Specifically, I said the temple was based on the premise that women came to earth with "unique endowments that are not common to man." I was told that I was pedestalizing women, putting down men, and that God is not a jerk like that.

But, what if He is?

I mean, if your definition of a "jerk" is treating men and women differently, then I gotta say you're setting God up for a rough review. This is, after all, the eternal power who authored menstruation for women and wet-dreams for men, y'know?

His ways really aren't our ways. Always.

At this point in my ponderings, I think God endowed women with His greatest power, but we are in the chapter of The Plan where outward things are focused on the male-driven offices of the lesser Aaronic and Melchezidek priesthoods. I have hope that further light and knowledge will come so that the awesomeness of women can someday be realized and acted out in the open.

I realize that's terribly unsatisfying for the present time. This is why, when I share my insights, I typically get one or all of these reactions:
  1. "You're making stuff up."
  2. "I reject the temple as it is the product of sexist men."
  3. "If men don't acknowledge our power, what's the point?"

Regarding the first reaction, I can tell you I'm not lying. Go to the temple, hear that the temple endowment for women is our further endowment, and note how Eve is portrayed as a wise, mature, and upright woman alongside the newbie Adam. (If you try to Google this you won't find it.)

As for the second, I will say that a word change here and there would go a looooong way to improve woman's temple experience. Just as important, I think such changes could be in line with how God really sees us. That being said, I'd like to pose a question in response: Without the temple what do we have? The eggs of equality, if you will, would then rest in the singular basket of us being ordained to the Aaron and Melchizedek priesthoods and I can't help but feel that is beneath us. To me it would feel like we were selling ourselves early for a lower price than what we're worth, precluding the possibility that something much greater lies in store. Which leads me to the third item...

The final point is where we come together. I don't like the imbalance of power either! I really resent that we as women have so much to offer and it's constantly overlooked. I feel sick when men who note what I have observed use this insight to speak to women in a patronizing way. I.e. "Ladies, let us run the whole show, because otherwise you'd be too great a force to reckon with. *wink*"

From where I stand, I think there's only two ways out of this rut. We need to pray (literally pray) the president of our church seeks and receives the messages Father promised to send us, and in the meantime stop resting our worth on acknowledgement from men. I see this playing out as we attend church for the ordinances (not the people), call out sexism wherever we see it, and start discussing women in the scriptures and in the modern church. I noticed the Young Women's presidency is starting their research into this and that gives me a lot of hope. 

What I'm suggesting requires a ton of patience and long-suffering. The current Church setup is not just, nor is it merciful to women who find themselves out of place. When I die, and if I'm fortunate to meet God face to face, the second thing I will ask them about is why we had this power dichotomy. (The first question, of course, is going to be about menstruation. WHY?!)